What goes around comes around

2010-10-01T22:40:00.006+08:00

09092010 to 120910 BKK trip with hubby n co
Didnt tk any photos and all this photos are taken frm (i forgot her name) hahaha! I fall sick right on e sec day of e trip hence no photos taken n v v little of shopping.. how sad! :( And i wan to apologise to hubby for spoiling e trip due to most of e time he acc me in e apartment.. And and and i also want to thanks him too ((: No more bathtub !!!

2010-10-01T00:22:00.000+08:00

Blog tomorrow!! Superrrrr LAZYYYY!

2010-09-07T01:40:00.000+08:00

At times its always good to be alone doing some soul searching.. For now, i really need to find a job and a job that i can wrk from home so that i can look after my dearest as well as earning more money..

Anw abit over for me this week cos i've been out drinking for the 3 whole night, and my ahyi jus kp me.. At times i hate it when he scold me due to drinking or staying out late cos he's also doing the same things!! Bt he can really make me laugh like mad and i realise i can both love and hate him..

Okay, i gonna get myself change and go to tea garden for my supper..
AND i wanna learn to use twitter so dion, u better teach me!! =D

2010-08-31T11:24:00.003+08:00

U push all ur way through and made me convince, big congrats u did it.. Till i realise everything was jus a lie, i don knw how you gonna make me convince again, i don knw how to believe in e words u say, i don knw how should i face u or shd i say how u shd face me? I don knw whats wrong with all the fcuk up things going on and on, i don knw why e fcuk my life became like this.. A wrong step in life? Regret? I shouldnt come to all this point and i cant.. I've so much to think, so much to worry, so much to scare but why things jus cant goes smoothly for me? Isit too hard for god to grant wishes? I don ask for much, all i wan is jus to be happy, to have my happiness thats all.. It takes two hands to clap, tyvvm for the things u do..

2010-08-17T01:32:00.000+08:00

I dont know what got into me to make me feel like blogging at this time! And actually i gt nothing much to blog abt also la, LOL! Cos frm mon to thurs i'm looking after my dearest prince, fri and sat was drinking.. Let me recall what have i did over e last weekend........ Fri was mj-ing with qin, zg and kt thn was Guess Where 2 with qin, gin, kenny, kel n cai after that meet amerllia n her sis dwn Df to find hubby.. Its definitely a FUN night cos idk how i got home!!! LOL!! As for sat, stayed hm as hubby nt gg either.. Sun went back mum place to fetch baby back home and have steamboat, how nice!
I'm craving for mac's mcwings now, and idk shd i order and gain few kg when i FINALLY slim dwn.. When i was preg i used to eat as much as i can and i don even bother hw much i gain bt now!!! AWWWWW~! Anw i'm really damn tired but i just cant sleep !!! :( And i just hope aug come fast, cos im scared la! And when im out with baby i've to bring him back home before sunset which im gonna have a hard time every sun cos i wake up e sun also going to set alr!!!

2010-07-27T20:51:00.001+08:00

I finally have time to update my blog n i knw my blog has been rotting!!! I'm not lazy okay?! Jus tt im really tired this days, n tt idiot has been holdin on to e com almost 24/7!! HAHAHH! Okay, i've been enjoyin myself on e weekend ever since my confinement end AND ITS GREAT TO HAVE BACK THAT LIL FREEDOM!! And i've slim down to 49kg after giving birth 4mre kg to lost to get back my usual weight during pregnancy was like 65 kg can?!! N N N i'm able to wear back my jeans! how great!! (: Motherhood life is getting mre stable for me, though at times its really tiring bt seeing him smile n look at u really brighten my everyday (:

16th July White bar & Hollywood
(amer, qin, mh, james n co)

24July Neverland & Df (hubby, qin, thong, kk and co)

Presenting my precious botak (:

Damn cute right?!!! hahahahahahah! Everyone is saying he look like father instead of me, how sad! Everything back on track, i love my life now n i seriously do.. =D MWACKS!

2010-07-07T20:15:00.002+08:00

woohoooo! 3 more days and that's it.. To all my dearest, im coming (:

2010-07-05T00:50:00.000+08:00

- I hate queen size bed!
- I hate year 2010!
- I hate when i feel depressed i'm unable to go out!
- I hate not being my own self!
- I hate myself giving f attitude!
- I hate having those feelings!
- I hate being tied!
- I hate being wht im now!
YES! AND I HATE MY LIFE! JUS FUCK IT!

-I love single bed
-I love year 2009
-I love drinking with everybody
-I love going out as and when i like
-I love getting high frm drinking
-I love freedom
-I love the past me
YES! AND I START TO LOVE EVERYTHING IN E PAST WHICH I NVR TRIED TO LOVE BEFORE!

I used to dislike staying home in the past till now i realise how much i wanted to move back.. Cause that's the only place whr i can be myself and that's the only place i feel loved..
I used to have a fun and stable life.. I used to enjoy my life to the fullest..

Everythings over.. Huiwen no longer alone now! She've a little one to look after.. After giving birth i realise i've really grown up and becomin more responsible..

I hope i'm rich so i dont have to rely on anybody now,but too bad i'm not.. And that's the reason why i wanna be independent, i want to earn lots of money for his future.. I'm learning to be independent and i guess i really need lots of support and i'm very sure one day, huiwen gonna be a successful career woman n a good mummy (:

Idk if things are gg well for the both of us as well as e marriage, but one thing i know for sure is "before and after marriage" the difference is really there.. We're no longer what we used to be, everything changed.. And its really never easy to mantain.. Idk how long our marriage can last, idk how long our feelings can stay.. Somehow or rather, i hope it last..

2010-07-03T01:07:00.000+08:00

Dont wan to be a good woman..

2010-06-20T10:40:00.003+08:00

Update abit of my birth exp now as i've time nw (:

08/06/10
Started to feel slight pain on my tummy in the morning when i woke up ard 11 plus, ignore it cos thought it could be stomachache.. Bt e pain did not stop, it came in awhile for like few sec thn stop for mins, bt i still ignore it though.. LOL! So after i've my fav dinner i decided to slp and ignore all e pain during 11pus.. Bt e pain gt mre intense ard 2+am (maybe 4/10) thn hubby call me to go hospital to check in case anything happen..

09/06/10
Admitted to Mt Alvernia ard 3am and was brought in to delivery suite and strip on ctg.. Nurse came in and say im having red bt 0cm dilated, so have to wait till morning Dr woo come thn will knw if ive to stay or discharged.. Dr woo came ard 10+am, checked and still nt dilated yet.. Say maybe to stay for a day and see how, if tmr still nt dilated thn i can be discharged.. But im still having contaction pain, it jus tt e pain stil can be endure.. And whts lucky is i've iphone with me if nt i'll be bored to hell! After lunch they brought me over to ward, strip on ctg every few hrs.. And each time e pain jus increase! Families came ard 7plus and left at 8pm when i decided to slp so i wont feel e pain cos this time round e pain is alr like (6-7/10) thn nurse came in to check and say im 1cm dilate stil gt long way to go.. I was like "WTF! IM ALR IN SO MUCH PAIN YET I STIL GOT 9CM MRE TO GO" 9+pm nurse came n wheel me to delivery suite, i was like "uh? go thr for wht? don tell me i gonna deliver tday?" strip on ctg agn,nurse check 1.5cm dilated.. 11+pm requested for epi cos e pain is unbearable for me, its like my whole back gonna shattered anytime!!

10/06/10
Ard 12am e person came to inject for me, thn put on drip.. I was in such a RELEIF whn my lower body no longer feel pain, ask e nurse if im gonna deliver tday.. She say probably, probably nt.. At tt period though i don feel pain, bt wht if i don deliver ltr and e epi went off i've to top up agn!Bt i don really cre, cos as for now im not in pain.. hahah! Fall asleep very soon and woke up at 2+am.. Nurse came in ard 3+ and check, 7-8cm dilate and say i'll deliver in e morning ltr.. I was really shocked, cos is really too fast frm 1cm to 8cm! Informed hubby, and msg amer.. Cos my darling boy gonna celebrate birthday with her every year! And now e scary part comes! Ard 7am things start pushing in to e delivery room, nurse came in and out and whats e most annoying thing is MY EPI FINISHED! AND ONLY LEFT WITH VERY MILD NUMBLESS! I didnt wan to top up cos waste of money..Started to feel pain, within half an hr my lower body feel all e pain coming in.. Dr woo came ard 7.30.. Started pushing at 8am, it was hell torturing!! 8.14AM heard his first cry, it was such a relief.. I do feel pain, bt seeing him feel like all so worthwhile.. Thn e stitching part came! i jus grab on to e laughing gas and smell like no one business, its fun actually to hv illusion bt i still can feel e needle and string in n out la!!!

Glad everythings over, and bb is now 10days old.. During this 10 days i really exp alot, its nv easy being one's mother.. Anw im waiting for my confinement to finish!!! 20days to go!!! Thn i can meet up with all my loves to drink!! VERY FAST OKAY!!! Wht goes around comes around, god bless u (:

2010-06-06T02:05:00.002+08:00

I live my own life, i decide my future, i choose my way (:

Though i cant change anything for now, bt rather thn being unhappy and being paranoid why not choose to be a happy mother to be soon..

There's alway ups and downs in life, i cant predict wht will happen and i cant stop things frm happening.. Bt at least i tried, treasure and did my best.. Whatever gonna happen down e road, its up to u to decide.. At least i've done my part, jiayou huiwen! (:

2010-06-05T03:14:00.003+08:00

If he were to be alive, I guess he would be sitting beside me, hearing me grumbling now :( Feii, I miss u!!

2010-05-27T07:50:00.000+08:00

23/05/10
Marina Square & singaporeflyers with family (:

2010-05-22T21:23:00.002+08:00

I intend to upload some photos, bt blogger doesnt allow me to do so.. Don ask me why, idk why either! Perhaps next time when i got e mood again, haa..

Stomach getting heavier, backaches getting mre serious, legs starting to get abit swollen,stretch marks getting mre,buttock giving me prob and whts mre, weight getting heavier :(
Its really nvr easy getting pregnant, nvr nvr..

Decided to give myself 1 or 2 days breaks, frm home.. Nth serious, no big probs..
Jus that i feel i shd do that (:
I miss e past, i miss when we used to cuddle each other on e single bed, i miss playing bs side by side, i miss staying over at ur place whn we got no place to go, i miss drinking with u at hm, i miss lying dwn on bed and watch show with u, i miss whn we cant fall slp n we would go buy supper tog, i miss u coming over to find me each and single day jus to fetch me over to yr place, i miss u say u miss me, i miss u say u cant slp w/o me, i miss those lil suprises frm u.. And what i really miss, is e past u.. E u whom wont throw me aside, put me alone and think of me each and every time..
I knw things wouldnt go so smoothly in life, i knw things wouldnt goes as our wish.. So shd jus let nature tk course.. I knw what iwan in life, i knw what iwan now and i knw wht iwan in e future.. I gonna strive hard for my future be it good or bad.. Jiayou huiwen*

Jus recieved madeline msg, she give birth to her bb girl yst.. Congrats! Bt her exp like abit too scary laaaa! hahahahah! So Est, be prepare for our worst uh.. =D

2010-05-19T23:15:00.001+08:00

Time to change my template and update my blog~!! PLS WAKE UP AND DON BE LAZY!

2010-05-15T01:12:00.002+08:00

I've been reading those young mummies blogs the whole night yst, and e main topic i went into was only "the arrival of e bb" part.. After reading i couldnt fall asleep throughout e day, cos i was damn scared la!!! Normally bb was born after e 36weeks, and if im nt wrong im currently 33weeks.. Which means i only left with 3-4weeks and i've to go through all those pain? Idk how was e pain, bt frm wht i read the pain was unbearable w/o epidural and i was very curious abt e effect of using e laughing gas.. Idk abt others, bt at this stage i start to think alot things like, hw's e bb is doing? will bb be fine after birth? And he wasnt really active as before, maybe cos he's growing and start to have lesser space inside..

I'm thinking of using Zaydien as his christian name, idk how it'll goes.. Bt i find it quite cool la! LOL

2010-05-08T22:58:00.002+08:00

In the past i always thought how good and fortunate it is to have a room of my own, and a family with less ppl.. Bt i was wrong.. I start to knw e feeling of loneliness, boredom and those scared feelings.. From small i've been sharing room with ahma and bro, so whenever im afraid they're always there sleeping beside me.. I seriously don like being alone, cos i've NVR been alone before.. At my own place, i always have ahma and ahgong around e whole day.. Bt here? He will always ask if he can go out, wht if my ans is no? I hate saying e word "u wan go u go lor" cos i knw im lying to myself and i knw i hate him gg out during e night bt if i don say this i guess our r\s wont last either.. Idk i jus felt tt he doesnt tk things seriously at all, who doesnt wan their husband to be beside them everyday esp pregnant women? IDK! yes, although he don go out everynight bt every 2 or 3 days he will go out once.. I jus feel so unfair! we both wan e child yet im e one staying at hm.. I also feel like gg out, i really wanted to go out so much.. I feel so sick staying at hm! Sorry, idk wht gots into me.. bt i jus feel like saying how i feel.. I don feel good, nt good at all.. I dunno hw to be a good wife nor whomever, all i knw is i hate everything now.. I wanted so much to be back like last time..

2010-04-25T02:15:00.000+08:00

I start to feel sick, sick of all e promises and everything.. Hopefully everything will change, i hope..

2010-04-22T22:22:00.002+08:00

So nice of zhiwei to come all e way to hougang and have dinner with me.. Anyway my dear girl, pls be strong and move forward.. Times don wait, and he's nt e only guy on earth.. CHEER UPP!!!! (:

IM SUPER SUPER TIRED!!! Guess tonight i will have my first early rest.. =D

2010-04-19T22:02:00.000+08:00

Huiwen been a good girl for this 2 days, knw why? Cos she actually stayed home for this 2 days which is hard to believe.. hahahah! But no choice, i've to start practicing.. Cos im forbidded to go out during e period of end of may and e whole of june :( whts mre sad is, after giving birth there will be a month of confinement.. Idk hw ppl manage to it, bt i hope i can too =D And im so bored now!!!

15/04/10

Meet up with Yuqing and Zhiwei (my ntss bestie) at bugis.. Well, for yuqing we're still in contact but as for zhiwei its been ages since i last saw her.. One thing for sure, she nvr change a bit (: Had our dinner at iluma and zhiwei bring out the neoprints we've taken 4 or 5 yrs back thn they decide to have one before and after..

okay, it will be a damn funny look.. pls don laugh!

And this is e recent 1 =D
Afterwhich we've this very famous dessert opp bugis before hubby came and fetch me home..

And they are really sweet enough to arrange and meet me at hougang this days, of cos for one reason is.. We'll nvr get enough of talking back our past and this few years of life, tt's explain why after so long we still can click so well =D

2010-04-12T17:26:00.000+08:00

The ugly lies is always hidden..

2010-04-07T16:59:00.008+08:00

Super untidy photos cos im lazy arranging them in order, pardon me =D I really have to thanks kitson cousin so much for helping to tk photos on my big day, thanks alot (: Have been gg out alot lately be it back my own place or where, i knw i shdnt be gg out so much bt idk why bt i jus feel happy.. No mood to blog nw, bye!

2010-03-19T14:20:00.002+08:00

I knw im so lack of update!!! PSPS! Well, there's nth much to update either for im a lifeless girl now... No party, no drinking, no smoking, no playing and there's only mj, tv, eating and sleeping (HW SAD RIGHT) nb! I bet e girls will be laughing at me lor.. hahahah! I swear i gonna tk back everything when my boy is out.. Bt on e other hand, i loved it too.. Cos i've gotta a simple and sweet life (:

I'm awaiting for next week, nt due to what.. Bt my lovely dion gonna be e star on tt day instead of me and yi i guess.. I dunno what she gonna up to again this time! hahaha!

I shall update when i got more things to, byeeeeeeeeeeee!

2010-02-25T14:19:00.003+08:00

Finally what have to say is say, and everything is almost done expect for rom things and stuff.. Bb's gender is confirmed yesterday with qin acc to e gynae and announced to be a boy, well.. I think bf is happy tt is boy la! Dad, mum, grandparents, aunt and bro is happy with e news too.. Cant believe im gg to be a mother so soon which i yawn to be few years ago, and i've to start being a good mother, wife and daughter-in law.. I dunno if i can handle, bt i'll definitely give my best shot (: I think i really gonna spent mre times with my family now, cos i wont have mre times with them.. Bt i will make sure im home for at least once a week when i move in there.. I knw things dwn e road wont be easy bt what's impt is they are all here =D

(doubt no one can understand e scanning expect for few)

2010-02-19T14:29:00.003+08:00

HAPPY CNY!!!

Lack of updates and no photos taken during cny :(

Cny been e same old one.. Gamble, gamble & gamble!!! I lose almost everyday, expect on vian place last night..

Things went smoothly for my side, expect for mum.. I knew she was quite happy bt at e same time she's very worried, i dunno wad else i can do.. When i was talking to her on e phone i felt like im such a useless daughter and on e other hand when i received dad msg, i knw e both of them loved and dote on me so much.. Well, i nvr regret being their daughter.. Tho im nt born in a wealthy family, bt they nvr failed to get what i want.. Unlike bro, im e only one whom are making them worry for e exact 21 years.. but they nvr say any single word, they still care for me so so so much.. I so much wanted to tell them hw much i love them and hw much i want to repay them bt i dunno hw to say it frm mouth..

2010-02-12T14:46:00.006+08:00

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Wasn't really happy with bf and i went hm in e noon.. As it's my bd i doesnt feel like staying hm either so meet dion & fer for sushi at plaza when bf called and ask me over (: At times lil suprise really can brighten up someone and i nvr expect he'll give suprise bt still, he did.. What really shocked me was, he went to bought it himself and i nvr nvr tot he'll.. So i've gt my early valentine day present on my bd (: Thanks dearest, i really appreciate every single lil things u did for me.. Big hugs!!!

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Finally meet up with ms cheong yq after saying for so long!! And this meet-up was a nice one, i laugh throughout our conversation.. We could clearly remembered each and every detail in e past and we jus laugh our way off, i swear i gonna meet her up again very very soon!! Meet e girls at cine for kbox after my met up with yq, well.. I seriously nvr regret knowing them.. Thanks girls (: Darling place after which..

2010-02-12T14:40:00.000+08:00

Finally chalet photos all up (:

5th Feb Day 1

Day 2

2010-02-10T17:10:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 21st TO ME, MYSELF!!! BUT, I'M NT FEELING HAPPY TODAY :(

2010-02-07T13:41:00.000+08:00

Back to blogging, and i'm back from chalet.. I got so so so so much thankful words to say esp to dearest bf (:

Firstly, i sincerely thanks those for turning up regardless of friends,families or relatives.. Cos some of them fork out e time jus to come and it really warm my heart..

Secondly, thanks to my families for helping me out this 2 days..

Thirdly, thanks dion,gin & qin for e birthday present.. & most imptly thanks for turning up tho i was really disappointed whn i heard u guys are gg malaysia bt... U GUYS CAME!!! HUGS!!!

Fourthly, thanks cousin & bro for e present.. Dad, mum, relatives for e angbao and xiao gu for e cake..

Fifthly, i really really wan to thanks vivian heng.. She helped me out throughout e bbq on fri night!!! BIG THANKS!!!

Lastly, i wan to thanks e MOST IMPT PERSON.. THANKS DARLING!!!! For e chalet and everything and most imptly ur ACCOMPANY this 2 days.. U didnt failed to make me laugh and u didnt failed to make me bored, this birthday present is enough and i dont need anymre suprise or celebration cos it's really enough for me.. To have u and e little one i guess its e happiest birthday present i ever recieved.. Much loves! Mwacks (:

Turning 21 in 3days time, can i jus stop at this age? They say when one hits 21 thn 22, 23, 24,25 come very very soon which i think.. uhmmmm, no choice.. Anyway, i see and realise alot of things this 2 days.. When one person grow up, many things really changed and its no longer like in e past.. I dunno, bt i guess everyone is like this.. Okay, photos to be up when i receive all =)

2010-01-06T14:13:00.002+08:00

Overdue NYE photos at Shanghai Dolly.. Okay, dumb me to go there at this state :(

2009-12-31T20:00:00.000+08:00

Last day of 2009, goodbye!

2009-12-29T21:16:00.002+08:00

Yst went to lavender thai disco, bq thn oasis with bf and co as its one of his friend birthday.. I havent step into bq since 1234567 mths ago and i realise i'm so out of that place and e reason partly is cos of the ppl there or probably i feel so much older being there.. Whatever, i guess i wont drop by thr unless for special occasion (:
Yang has closed down.. Although i dont been thr as often as before, somehow or rather i felt abit wasted.. I've been to that particular place for 4 or 5 yrs be it Tangs club, SOS or Club yang but too bad..
I miss working and i enjoyed not working, i miss my friends bt i dunno whether they miss me.. I want to go sunway lagoon, i want to go on cruise, i want to go gold coast, i want to go japan, i want to go paris and so many more..
Okay, i think i better get myself prepare if not i'll be nag agn if he reach and im still not down yet..

Friends are always e truely one (:

2009-12-28T17:30:00.000+08:00

Xmas was celebrated at Illusion with friends, enjoyed myself (: bf place after tt and they went supper club..
2010 approaching in few days hopefully it'll be a great year..

2009-12-21T18:11:00.002+08:00

At times, things are always beyond our control.. There are so much unsolve prob, but at least i make my stand and i'm glad i've ppl around (: I dont know if things could turn out the way we want, or if its hard but i hope it can..

Well, nothing much to blog either cos everyday been e same.. Its either im at home or bf's place, frankly speaking i really feel happy having him by my side.. As for now, i jus hope everything can settle soon and hopefully i will get a job fast..

2009-12-14T14:36:00.000+08:00

11th December 09
Munhon birthday @ sabai
Enjoyed myself that night with all e people, left around 2 to bf place (:

2009-12-09T00:26:00.002+08:00

Yang with elicia & qin earlier on and like finally i went out after so long, cause i rmb e last time i step in to pub or club is during bf birthday... Cool right? Everyone is enjoying drinking and clubbing and yet i cant, poor bf have to suffer with me..

And again during this time, sleeping mood strike me hard.. My eyes closing, goodnyte people!
Hopefully i will have a sweet dream rather thn those lousy one tonight (:

2009-12-03T23:55:00.002+08:00

* I miss drinking
* I miss getting half drunk

I shall see martell n beer next year :(

01 12 09

Liang's 23rd Birthday plus 1st death anniversary..
Pay him a visit with family, again a saddening one..

Happy 23rd birthday liangliang, hope u like those present tt has been burnt to u.. (:

2009-11-29T23:07:00.000+08:00

Watched 2012 with Bf yst at toa payoh, nice show.. I actually wanted to watch Paranormal Activity bt too bad there's no sit available :(

PPS down, which means no 宫心计 and meaning i have to sleep early :(

Blogging seems boring!!!

2009-11-13T17:15:00.004+08:00

7th Nov 2009

Ben birthday @ club yang

Got so much wanted to blog, but probably not now..

2009-11-02T05:22:00.000+08:00

Sleepless ~

Bro fer is web caming with me now as poor him cant get to slp too..

Lunch with waieng and sq later on, hopefully i'm nt tired and wont put them aeroplane (:

2009-11-01T23:35:00.000+08:00

Halloween night~

Suppose to go night safari for the halloween show bt too bad, its raining :( Laksa steamboat with bf, qin n kenny.. Then to Mt Faber for some drinks before heading to Nana..

Sweet Sweet (:

2009-10-26T00:28:00.002+08:00

Ratchada last night with bf and co (i knw i was abit SUA GU), bt not really as what i expect.. Saw some familiar faces tho.. hahah! Went over to Nana, oasis and bf place..

Caught halloween II with elicia and qin, i guess bf must really thanks them for watching with me.. If not he will have to suffer, bt he still have to suffer la.. Thr are so many horror film coming along lor, be patient uh my dear.. hahha!

I've not been feeling well ever since e bottle of red wine, i dunno why.. And i think i really can quit all my drinking, cos e sight of it make me feel disguested.. And hopefully i will be able to have a peaceful slp on my bed tonight :(

2009-10-24T17:52:00.001+08:00

I miss marybrownnnnnnn :(

2009-10-19T00:53:00.000+08:00

Friday night at Nana & Neverland with dion, bf n co

I find myself getting more and more fortunate each day, and i'm really glad he's not like those guys out there.. The last and only guy i want to be with (;

2009-10-15T22:51:00.001+08:00

Love doesn't make the world go round. Loves is what makes the ride worthwhile.

2009-10-12T15:45:00.003+08:00

If i were to be director of a script..

All i want was just a simple and stable life and not to be a failure

And not forgetting my aim to be a career woman (:

2009-10-09T01:09:00.002+08:00

Random

2009-10-08T18:13:00.003+08:00

Ass hole keep running out and throw me alone at his house! ^!#%*$^#^%^!@

Okay, im bored..

2009-09-30T23:27:00.006+08:00

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2009-09-29T05:04:00.000+08:00

Its 4plus in e morning yet.. I CANT SLEEP!!! Probably i've play a lil too much and has been sleeping when the sun has rised.. I've been eating, smoking, watching show frm youtube, dreaming and feeling paranoid for 123456 hrs!!!

I'm thinking, what does one past make e present one to feel? Don ask, why or who.. I was jus watching one drama and trying to put myself in e character..
And i come to e conclusion tt if i were her, i will keep moaning over it and the images will definitely keep repeating.. That's why there's a saying "Ignorance is a blissed" So i knw, i shouldnt be like e kpo's to find out everything abt another parties history if nt life will be terrible..
I felt like a idiot nw blogging all this rubbish,i need to get a job soon! VERY VERY SOON!

2009-09-29T03:01:00.001+08:00

Bf suprised me with my fav bq prawn mee in the noon, and he's sweet enough to slp for few hrs and travel all the way thr.. I swear he's the nicest guy i've met =D

26th Sept
Celebrated Gin's advance 21st @ club 62

2009-09-23T22:43:00.006+08:00

22nd Sept

Town, Narcissors, Nana, Bq and bf place

Yesterday was fun with ALL the JOKER'S ard, i've a great laugh!

Oh ya, i guess amerllia is changing job.. She's learning how to pluck pipes frm toilet, hahahah!

2009-09-22T04:28:00.005+08:00

Amerllia and i decided not to drink too often, so we make new plans..

1)Stalker
2)Web Cam (she can make me laugh like mad can?!)

I simply thanks god for bringing such a clown/balloon/good friend to me.. hahahha! (She'll definitely call me when she saw this)

I've got a silly bf, hahhaha!

Im turning in! Goodnyte people (:

2009-09-20T00:20:00.001+08:00

Sat night, and huiwen is home.. Thumbs down! :(

2009-09-19T15:59:00.002+08:00

The family was packing up our room, and saw many photos.. The past family photos really give me a warm feelings, those feelings is hard to describe.. I so much wanted to go back to the past, wherby liang's is still around to play with us.. Went to look at his fb and i jus cant control my tears.. For now we've accepted ur absence, bt we know in our heart ur soul are always here with us.. Dearest cousin, it's been 9 months since u're gone~ Always being missed*

2009-09-12T20:59:00.000+08:00

It's saturday!!! =D

2009-09-09T13:07:00.004+08:00

I seriously dont feel good, not good at all! Those feeling is messy-ing up my day! I got no mood to do anything, even watching show during my lunch time, sucks big time!
Yupei say this is call "mood swing" Anyone teach me how to get rid of it pls?!

I guess even a lil surprise or some drinks tonight will nt help..
I shall just hit right on my bed and hide myself in the blanket when i got home!

2009-09-08T11:20:00.000+08:00

The morning start with unpleasent feeling.. Woke up, stare hard on the ceiling and brain shut off! Pick up the phone, say hello for a few times bt he did nt reply.. So i drag myself out of the bed, pour myself a cup of warm water, light the stick and stare blankly in the air.. I know i've a bad nightmare yst, i know it's a HORROR NIGHTMARE but i jus couldnt remember wat it's.. I jus dont feel right! I could feel the cold, and the sweat on my forehead.. This is when i don't want to think, dont want to care and the images jus flew by! It was then i know what arse dream i've had..

2009-09-07T09:38:00.002+08:00

5th Sept - V3 and Neverland

2009-09-01T16:34:00.001+08:00

For Chen Huiwen who birth on month February below are What Your Birth Month Says About You :

* Abstract thoughts
* Loves reality and abstract
* Intelligent and clever
* Changing personality
* Temperamental
* Quiet, shy and humble
* Honest and loyal
* Determined to reach goals
* Loves freedom
* Rebellious when restricted
* Loves aggressiveness
* Too sensitive and easily hurt
* Showing anger easily
* Dislike unnecessary things
* Loves making friends but rarely shows it
* Daring and stubborn
* Ambitious
* Realizng dreams and hopes
* Sharp
* Loves entertainment and leisure
* Romantic on the inside not outside
* Superstitious and ludicrous
* Spendthrift
* Learns to show emotions

2009-08-30T22:18:00.002+08:00

I guess i gonna be dead tmr..

While waiting for bf to come fetch me, amerllia give me this idea.. And i didnt hestitate, hahah! I know i look funny..

2009-08-28T01:10:00.000+08:00

What comes around goes around..

He dont have a honeyed mouth
He doesnt say sweet stuff to me (only when i force him to do so)
He always bully me
He always wan me to get fatter
He always lose to me in sissors paper stone
He can sleep for 134326094 hrs

Bt... The great things abt him is....

He will always bring me out
He will always care whether have i reach hm safetly
He will always watch movie with me when i wan (tho i knw he is only acc me)
He will always make me laugh
He will always afraid i go out and flirt (hahahahhaha)
He will always love n miss me ( i knw, pls admit okay?!)
He will always hug me to sleep ( and i feel so blessed can?)

There's still lots more which i'm lazy to post...

Although we're together for jus few months but the feeling is like we've been together for long
I just want u to stay by my side, now.. And forever.. U promised u will not leave Mr Yi (:

2009-08-25T14:13:00.002+08:00

I'm surprised tt qiren actually still have this photos, i'm starting to miss those carefree days at ymca.. Too bad, no one join me back..

2009-08-23T21:42:00.002+08:00

Back from D's place, and sad to say weekend ended :(
I was like alr planning for my next year birthday lor! Yes, i knw is a lil too early, bt at least i did plan.. Maybe a cruise or something with bf will be nice, hahaha.. Bt i knw my girls will kill me! Maybe i should jus start to save up first and think of a better plan..
And and and, something must be done to my hair now! It's getting more and more rough, more and more split ends and e worse part is my hair start falling! Hopefully i will be able to do my hair with waieng this week..

2009-08-21T15:21:00.002+08:00

I grab this from lee shiya blog, and i gt one very curious quest to ask her.. "When did we took this photo?!" i dont remember i did took this photo lor!! My weekend here (:

2009-08-17T09:30:00.002+08:00

I believe it's always fair..

2009-08-15T21:45:00.000+08:00

15/08/09

2009-08-12T23:20:00.002+08:00

62 days still counting on :)

2009-08-10T23:29:00.003+08:00

Sunday night at oasis~

Ps: I love my bf (:

2009-08-09T13:29:00.002+08:00

从来没想过不能再和你牵手
委屈时候没有你陪着我心痛
一切都是我太过骄纵以为你会懂
一直忘了说我有多感动
我知道你还是爱着我虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中其实这份爱没停过
曾经完整幸福的梦在脑海里头
我多希望你还在我左右
答应你我会好好过不让这些眼泪白流

2009-08-04T10:45:00.002+08:00

2009-08-03T09:43:00.002+08:00

I've got a cruel bf :(

2009-07-26T21:15:00.000+08:00

I didnt realise i'm tired till bf say.. I felt that i'm more like a superwoman now, and it's been like 123456 months i havent got a 12hrs of sleep.. I guess i'm sick, i cant sleep for long.. I cant be too awake! I know i sound crazy..

I read this from tinger blog and i find it meaningful.

"if it will upset the other party when they find out, I think it’s considered cheating. So if you have to hide it, you shouldn’t do it."

What's past belongs to history.

Huiwen never want to waste her weekend staying home, and so her weekend was spent with her dearest bf and friends.. Anyway she misses her girls outing, when are my girls meeting for drinks? I miss my best friends :(

2009-07-22T13:12:00.001+08:00

I wore a smile on my face when i finish reading, the first smile of e day.. Maybe i should learn to be content~ Stop being emo!! There's still a long way down e road (:

A Story to live by
There was a blind girl who hated herself because she was blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her. She told her boyfriend, 'If I could only see the world, I will marry you.'

One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her. When the bandages came off, she was able to see everything, including her boyfriend.
He asked her, 'Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?' The girl looked at her boyfriend and saw that he was blind. The sight of his closed eyelids shocked her. She hadn't expected that. The thought of looking at them the rest of her life led her to refuse to marry him.

Her boyfriend left in tears and days later wrote a note to her saying: 'Take good care of your eyes, my dear, for before they were yours, they were mine.

This is how the human brain often works when our status changes. Only a very few remember what life was like before, and who was always by their side in the most painful situations.

Life Is a Gift

Today before you say an unkind word - Think of someone who can't speak.
Before you complain about the taste of your food - Think of someone who has nothing to eat.
Before you complain about your husband or wife - Think of someone who's crying out to GOD for a companion.
Today before you complain about life - Think of someone who died too early on this earth.
Before you complain about your children - Think of someone who desires children but they're barren.
Before you argue about your dirty house someone didn't clean or sweep - Think of the people who are living in the streets.
Before whining about the distance you drive Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet.
And when you are tired and complain about your job - Think of the unemployed, the disabled, and those who wish they had your job.
But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another - Remember that not one of us is without sin.
And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down - Put a smile on your face and think: you're alive and still around.

2009-07-20T09:57:00.002+08:00

I've never enjoy my monday! Every monday will be restless and bored day :(

2009-07-15T14:15:00.000+08:00

13 July 2009
Ms Qin Qin Birthday
Normal celebration at yang (:

2009-07-13T11:52:00.002+08:00

Monday blueeee!!!
I'm freaking bored at work now...
I finally watched Transformer like after so many weeks!!
Anyone entertain me?
Only 3hrs have passed and i still have 5more hrs to end my day at work :(

2009-07-12T20:52:00.002+08:00

Friday night
Raining bar, club yang n oasis..
Happy birthday to dear sharon (:

2009-07-10T16:45:00.000+08:00

Jus a simple update incase my blog get rot, haha.

It's another friday (:

06/07/09

Elicia Birthday~ Dinner and club yang with the few ladies..

Aunty elicia: Happiness is in ur hand, you know what i mean.. And u finally hit 2s! hahahah!

2009-07-06T15:31:00.004+08:00

03/07/09
Club yang, zirca & oasis.. Dead drunk* Enjoyed..

30/06/09
Finally the three met up... Holland, oasis & nana.. And i found out none change (:

2009-07-03T15:03:00.000+08:00

Tortoise is starting war with me~!!!!!!!!! :)

2009-07-01T12:35:00.000+08:00

26/06/09
Eunice Birthday (:

What's more can i still ask for when i've all my dearest ones around?

I feel like i'm e most fortunate girl in the world (:

Just stay as it is now~

2009-06-25T15:00:00.000+08:00

-She fall in love...
-She found out there lots of things for her to learn
-She always wanted to be e happy-go-lucky girl
-She want to watch transformer
-She is waiting for her phone to ring
-She feel like sleeping now
-She is crazy now
-She hope 5.30 just arrive now
-She wish he wont angry with her
-She learn her mistakes

I think she's really crazy!!! Pardon me, but i just cant concentrate on my work and just feel like posting rubbish.. Anyone can tell me jokes? I really don't feel good now :(

2009-06-23T11:12:00.002+08:00

19/06/09

2009-06-15T16:55:00.006+08:00

Sat Night (:

2009-06-12T16:45:00.003+08:00

Have some prob with my her, and i got turkey can!! She loves to make this sound "chek" (those very pekcek sound) then i told amerllia about what happen and this was wad she msg after we hang up, i tell u i super in love with amerllia.. hahah!

Amer : If yr boss make that sound again, u tk the pesticide and spray. Cors lizard also make kinda sound.lol!
Me: HELLO! I've to be very serious now, dont make me laugh can?! Lol!
Amer: U imagine she stand beside u and make that sound. Then u tk out and spray in her mouth. Lol
Me: I think if i do this, i tmr really can go learn how to make chwee kway alread.. Hahah!
Amer: Ya, but u haven't tell me whr u put the chai por ley.

Curious why we say till chwee kway? Cause we intend to open a stall, and the idea was given by her.. I think dion is interested too (:

2009-06-07T17:46:00.003+08:00

I guess i've to put a stop to all my night's outing, jus two days a week would be jus nice.. Bt i do enjoyed myself! Can money jus fall from e sky so i can stop working? Back to track and work hard, i think i really really have to get a license.. Probably i will enroll next month, i hope so..

It's hard for two to have chemistry, i hope everythings turn well for me (:

2009-06-04T19:59:00.006+08:00

Dine at Kuishinbo & celebrated Dion aunty birthday @ club yang
So sweet of her gf to bake cake for her can?! Hereby wish her a happy birthday once again (:

2009-06-04T14:23:00.000+08:00

Jus another day (:

2009-06-01T11:15:00.002+08:00

Monday blues!! Mixed feelings running tru and fro~

2009-05-28T09:00:00.003+08:00

Try harder bringing me down, i shall wait and see what's more you can say.. If there's nothing then jolly well shut your mouth, cause it only did harm to yourself.. I'm not gonna care anymore since you've already say out that words (:

2009-05-24T21:07:00.001+08:00

u changed me into a fine lady, brought me out to see the world outside.. I dearly appreciate what you've done for me all this years, but everyone got a limit in their heart.. Perhaps i realise it too late or maybe i've been enduring all this while but i do want to see my future with no hurts and scars.. Everythings may turn into a dreams, but moments with u will always be kept somewhere in my heart.. I'll take great care of myself and nvr make ur nightmare come true, i promise*

2009-05-24T18:27:00.006+08:00

Genting Trip (:

2009-05-19T20:26:00.000+08:00

Genting trip (:

2009-05-10T23:26:00.005+08:00

Things are changing every sec, somehow i hope i could really maintain everythings.. But it seems like i cant...

2009-04-27T16:31:00.003+08:00

Xiao gu emailed me a photo which kelyn did for her homework.. Although it's nth special but the feelings and meanings is hidden inside..
(Backview of Liang's)

2009-04-27T14:43:00.004+08:00

Think i played alittle over e last whole week, bt bt bt.. I really enjoyed and this week is jus another short week, 4days of works and 3 off days.. How wonderful it'll be if every week is the same.. I guess my nights play behaviour comes again, i've always been awaiting for weekend to arrive so i can jolly well get out of my house before e clock strike 12.. I think i can only enjoy myself for this few years, once i get older.. No more enjoying, no more drinking every week,no more pubbing n clubbing and whats else, no more youth! So i better play with all i can before its too late, because we dont know how far is frm west to east and hw long is from heaven to hell.. We cant predict what will happen tomorrow, guess all we can do is enjoy our life to the fullest (:

24/04/09 Lunar

18/04/09 Club Nana

ps: just a lil more (:

2009-04-21T19:38:00.004+08:00

Random :)

ps: in love with 2009

I finally realize times dont wait, it doesnt tk long for one to fall.. Bt it takes times for one to stand.. I just want to do what i feel like doing (:

2009-04-06T09:57:00.002+08:00

03/04/09

Elf 21st birthday celebration @ aranda country club
Happy sweet 21st sweetie (:

2009-03-30T10:28:00.003+08:00

Live my life to e fullest, i dont know when i wont be able to enjoy anymore.. So i would want to play more when i'm young.. I dont wan to grow older but i've go no other choice and if i would have a choice i would want to stay young.. I hope my shortaway is jus tmr cos i hate waiting!!

28/03/09 O Bar~